Angelina never thought how the happily flowing days could turn this harsh. Nor had she thought how the flowers of happiness could turn into thorny miseries. Seeing those ecstasy turn into grief she cursed life and God. The passionate lover of God was changed into atheist. God is only a joke for her now. She tore all the pictures of Hindu Gods of her room. She threw away all those idols of Gods. Those idols which were made of metals were sold to street metal refineries. Her life was crying hard and she didn't have any hope of being happy.
Exhausted with the
attempts she tried to forget him, she became weaker and weaker. All the hopes
died. The dreams she had seen with him in her future life were blown away. She
felt her life had nothing for her to smile. One can infer from her condition
that she had fallen in true love for the first time. She is known as brave,
courageous and patient girl to the neighbors. Her neighbors praise her bravery
for being a women activist and speaking against violation of women rights and
freedom. She was raised in poor family. Despite the struggles and economic
miseries she faced in her life, her charisma, motivation, hard work and
dedication never faded. She always topped her college. Her articles would
always get praised and attracted the listeners. She knew all that. She knew how
brave, courageous and hardworking she was. Her manhood started to die when she
faced this "First Love Break Up." Either in handling school as
school head girl or in conducting extra-curricular activities in school,
teachers always talked about her sagacity. The charismatic girl who was known
as most extroverted girl in the school suddenly transformed into reclusive one.
Sometimes she was found sitting lonely in garden of the school. Sometimes she
was found in restroom weeping. When she came out her red and moist eyes
substantiated the weeping. Everyone in her college knew about the pain she was
suffering with. Seeing her in the present days everyone got amazed how she
succumbed to the emotional pains and rages. Though acting with compassion and
empathy with her, her friends were burning fire on her back. They talked about
their attachments, virginity and what not. The girl with effulgent personality
turned into gossiping topic in no time.
Deep inside she knew
what was traumatizing her. The girl who was showered with his love for past two
years was suddenly bereft of that love. The guy, who was with her in every step
of her life, left her without turning back. The shoulders on which she used to
lie were no more with her. She misses his love, help, care and importantly his
presence. His presence was encouraging, quenching, empowering and uplifting.
The late teen years that she grew with his presence are hurting to her now.
Many endeavors to forget him are still to find their place. It only leaves her
depressed and hurt. Sitting lonely on the stony chair of the garden, she thinks
her extroverted personality, sagacity, patience and laborious behavior was
impelled by his motivations, never ending love and overwhelming support. The
sad thing for her is that in spite of the edge being taken off the pain is
conquering each and every cells of her body. Now even she feels this world
spurious. She doesn't trust anything. The most trusted person when made her
condition this painful and hurtful she felt everything in the world bogus. Her
status in Facebook would be now seen as:
"The world is
Fake. Fake people! Fake world!"
One day she was sleeping
on her pillow moistened with tears. Suddenly a knock came from outside the
door. Sudden eruption of knocking sound bamboozled her and she stammered. This
hyper-reaction to a little knock shows how she was killed in her sub-conscious
level too. She woke up clumsily and looked through door lens to find who it
was. It was Renasa, her best friend. She felt bad to be in such condition. She
knew that Renasa has come to sympathize her. Though she tried to be natural and
fine, her eyes and body language spoke much of her condition.
Renasa : How you?
[arranging her
disheveled hair] "Improving."
"How hard boys can
be! Did you know Rick made new girlfriend Melina. A new girlfriend within a
week of breakup!"
"Please stop talking about that betrayer. I
didn't know him until the day he left me."
Days passed. Weeks
passed. Months passed.
Angelina started to get
better of her condition. Though there was no sheer joy for her, the condition
was not worse as before. She felt the pain being healed slowly and gradually
day by day.
She realized how
insanely depressed the breakup had made her. Even she regrets the foolishness
she exhibited during the breakup time. When she was in her middle teens,
falling in true love was her bucket list experience and she experienced it. Now
she has started feeling love as a joke and non-sense.
The betrayal she got
months ago made her more strong and stout than never before.
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